Dream Story by Joshua Harris (warning: long post)

Olympus 12-40mm f/2.8 Pro

09/04/2007 10:20:40 PM · #1

Hey everyone, i read this in a book recently and thought i would share,
This is Joshua Harris' story about a dream he had before writing his book:

(for an easier read, read bear_music's post a few posts down)

â��In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features save for the one wall covered with small index-card files.
They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endlessly in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read â��Girls I Have Liked.â�� I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one.
And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here was written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldnâ��t match.
The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird: â��Books I Have Read,â�� â��Lies I Have Told,â�� â��Comfort I Have Given,â�� â��Jokes I Have Laughed At.â�� Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: â��Things Iâ��ve Yelled at My Brothers.â�� Others I couldnâ��t laugh at: â��Things I Have Done in Anger,â�� â��Things I Have Muttered under My Breath at My Parents.â�� I never ceased to be surprised by the contents. Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes there were fewer than I hoped.
I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my twenty years to write each of these thousands, possibly millions, of cards? But each confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.
When I pulled out the file marked â��Song I Have Listened To,â�� I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadnâ��t found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of music, but more by the vast amount of time I knew that file represented.
When I came to a file marked â��Lustful Thoughts,â�� I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed contents. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded.
Suddenly I felt an almost animal rage. One thought dominated my mind: â��No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!â�� In an insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didnâ��t matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took the file at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.
Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh. And then I saw it. The title bore â��People I Have Shared the Gospel With.â�� The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost, unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more that three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.
And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that the hurt started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key.
But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him. No, please, not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus.
I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldnâ��t bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to watch His response, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one?
Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didnâ��t anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands, and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didnâ��t say a word. He just cried with me.
Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file, and one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card.
â��No!â�� I shouted, rushing to Him. All I could find to say was â��No, no,â�� as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldnâ��t be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood.
He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and continued to sign the cards. I donâ��t think ill ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, â��It is finished.â��
I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written."

Excerpt from I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris

Hope this means something to you,

Ryand

Message edited by author 2007-09-05 16:50:04.

slickchik

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09/04/2007 10:40:29 PM · #2

Thank you for sharing.

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09/05/2007 04:38:51 PM · #3

you are welcome

Bear_Music

Samsung Galaxy S24 Ultra

09/05/2007 04:47:54 PM · #4

Thanks for sharing. I have edited this with paragraph breaks to make it easier to read.

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This is Joshua Harris' story about a dream he had before writing his book:

â��In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features save for the one wall covered with small index-card files.

They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endlessly in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read â��Girls I Have Liked.â�� I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one.

And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here was written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldnâ��t match.

The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird: â��Books I Have Read,â�� â��Lies I Have Told,â�� â��Comfort I Have Given,â�� â��Jokes I Have Laughed At.â�� Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: â��Things Iâ��ve Yelled at My Brothers.â�� Others I couldnâ��t laugh at: â��Things I Have Done in Anger,â�� â��Things I Have Muttered under My Breath at My Parents.â�� I never ceased to be surprised by the contents. Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes there were fewer than I hoped.

I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my twenty years to write each of these thousands, possibly millions, of cards? But each confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature.

When I pulled out the file marked â��Song I Have Listened To,â�� I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadnâ��t found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of music, but more by the vast amount of time I knew that file represented.

When I came to a file marked â��Lustful Thoughts,â�� I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed contents. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded.

Suddenly I felt an almost animal rage. One thought dominated my mind: â��No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!â�� In an insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didnâ��t matter now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took the file at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it.

Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self-pitying sigh. And then I saw it. The title bore â��People I Have Shared the Gospel With.â�� The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost, unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more that three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand.

And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that the hurt started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key.

But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him. No, please, not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus.

I watched helplessly as He began to open the files and read the cards. I couldnâ��t bear to watch His response. And in the moments I could bring myself to watch His response, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one?

Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didnâ��t anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands, and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didnâ��t say a word. He just cried with me.

Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file, and one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card.

â��No!â�� I shouted, rushing to Him. All I could find to say was â��No, no,â�� as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldnâ��t be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood.

He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and continued to sign the cards. I donâ��t think ill ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, â��It is finished.â��

I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written."

â�� Excerpt from I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris

Message edited by author 2007-09-05 16:48:46.

09/05/2007 04:50:33 PM · #5

thanks for the edit robert, appreciate it