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02/23/2006 08:17:05 PM · #1

It's weird..... I was just thinking about emailing the Dr. Phil show again to see if I could get some help with my emetophobia (fear of throwing up).

So, I log onto the front page and what do I see????

Have a bizzare Phobia?
If you have a bizarre fear that's causing problems in your life, please share a story with us.

So I jumped on that!

Here is the letter I wrote them:

Hi Dr. Phil,
My name is Lorrie Beard I am 26, married and a mother of 2 beautiful children. I am a self employed Photographer and I suffer from Emtophobia. I have had this fear for years now, and it went away for the longest time. Only rearing it's ugly head when I was faced with someone who was ill. In November of 2004, I got it back full force. When I started I was 145 pounds.... and I am now down to 119 pounds.

There are times where I have the nausea and pains for days on end.... and I just want to give up. I feel like there no point in living if everyday has to be like this.

I am so depressed right now. I have been feeling off for almost a week now, and I just sit and let life pass me by. I never feel like I am alive... I have gotten to the point where I feel dead inside. I don't engage with my family (I stay far away from my husband and kids... I sit on the computer from the time I get up until I go to bed) I make sure that I stay far away, I don't want to bring them down as well. When I wake up in the morning, I count down the hours until I can go to bed. Sleep is the only place I get rest from this.

This is effecting my life, my marriage, my business and most of all my children. I don't go out much... because of the emetophobia, I have developed agoraphobia as well. I am always sick in the stomach and because of not eating I am weak and have the shakes quite often.

I have basically stopped eating again. I only eat to get by and even that is a chore for me. I will eat and then have panic attacks that I will get sick. I feel almost guilty for eating. I was doing so well with meds and even gaining weight back. Now I am going downhill again.

My children suffer alot, because I don't take them out to play or go anywhere. When one of them is sick, I run and hide. My daughter had a stomach flu around new years, and I was home alone with her. She got sick and I called my husband in a panic. He rushed home and missed 3 days of work so he could care for her. The only she kept saying was that she was so sorry! That ripped my heart out. I am always asking how they feel, if they feel sick... and it's not just them. I ask everyone. If someone says they have been sick I panic... even if it's just a cold.

What really sucks, is that I'm on meds. And for the first month I was actually doing better. I didn't think about vomit 24/7, I had fun and I felt alot better. But within the past week, I am getting back to my old ways again. I am upping my meds again so that I can attempt to feel normal.

I tried hypnotherapy and made some progress.... but it was too expensive and I couldn't continue.

It's so hard.... alot of times I feel like no one understands what I am going through. No one knows what it's like to live everyday in fear and as a result think of harming yourself. everyone says, just get sick, it will go away. Or you have an eating disorder...... I don't have an eating disorder! And as of late, I have been thinking about it overtime!

Dr. Phil, I want help. I NEED help. I am slowly killing myself and my family. I don't know what else to do, or where else to turn. I am desperate!

Thank You,
Lorrie Beard

So........ I get an email back tonight saying that they are interested in my story and asked if I would be available to fly out to Hollywood March 8th and 9th!!!!!!

Now, it's not set in stone..... but I am hoping and praying!

Hopefully this will be what I need!!!!!!

I just HAD to share the good news!

<3 Lor

Phil

Canon EOS-7D

02/23/2006 08:23:21 PM · #2

Congrats on your trip Lorrie. I truly hope you get the help you need and deserve. Good luck to you.

Canon EF 17-40mm f/4.0L USM

02/23/2006 08:29:24 PM · #3

Thank You! :)

Rikki

Canon EOS-20D

02/23/2006 08:31:39 PM · #4

I hope Dr. Phil can help you out Lorrie. Good luck ;)

alfresco

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02/23/2006 08:47:27 PM · #5

Congrats tripwise and hopefully helpwise, Lor!!

:)

buzzrock

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02/23/2006 08:57:51 PM · #6

Im kinda confused is your fear Emetophobia, the Fear of vomitting?
The spelling was different on your post, but I'm assuming that is it.
I guess my confusion comes from losing weight, are you afraid to eat because you think its going to make you vomit, I'm not making Lite of this, I am just asking.
I guess my confusion comes from people who make them self vomit to lose weight.
I really hope that you can get help.
I'm sure all of DPC shares my thoughts and prayers.

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02/23/2006 09:17:36 PM · #7

Originally posted by buzzrock:

Yes - it's the fear of vomitting.
I am afraid to eat, because I am afraid tha if I eat, I will get sick. Even though people have told me you can still get sick on an empty stomach... and it's actually worse. But in my mind.... food = getting sick. It's weird how that works!

I don't do it to lose weight.... it's not intentional. Trust me! I want to be able to sit down and eat dinner like a normal person and enjoy food. I want to gain a few pounds so that I am healthy. It's not about being thin or not. I think that is why people think it's and eating disorder right away.... because I do have food issues.

Thank You for asking and wanting to know more.

Lorrie

Faye Pekas

Canon EOS-20D

02/23/2006 09:41:50 PM · #8

Lorrie, my thoughts and prayers are with you. Hopefully this will be the breakthrough you need. Please let us know when you will be on the show, if you are chosen.

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02/23/2006 10:08:07 PM · #9

Originally posted by Faye Pekas:

Lorrie, my thoughts and prayers are with you. Hopefully this will be the breakthrough you need. Please let us know when you will be on the show, if you are chosen.

Thank you. I will be sure to let you all know! :)

Cutter

Nikon D700

02/23/2006 10:32:01 PM · #10

hopefully you will get over this terrible affliction. I am sorry for you.

KevinRiggs

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02/23/2006 10:32:45 PM · #11

Well, Lorrie, I'm glad about the trip because it seems to be important to you (and I think I can understand some of that feeling of a lack of control and the sense of relief when you finally find some help or something to put hope in).

I hope that whether its Dr. Phil's advice, some followup or something else you find some release from this fear. I hope those shackles that bind your mind about this problem are loosed through some means so that you can enjoy the life you have and the loved ones that sound like they want to share their lives with you.

Thanks for being brave enough to share this.

Kev

Chinabun

Canon PowerShot SD990 IS

02/23/2006 10:59:50 PM · #12

Good luck, its not easy having something like this to deal with. I know that you know whats good for you but you cant control what your mind is thinking. been there myself (not with the vomitting) but anxiety. i was afraid to be alone in a room or a simple trip to walmart freaked me out...its amazing what can happen to you in life, and you think to yourself "why is this happening to me" and deep down inside you know its petty but you cant help it. Everything will work out. I got better and I didnt even have Dr. Phil! keep us posted if you get on! Best Wishes.

deapee

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Nikon AF Nikkor 50mm f/1.8D

02/23/2006 11:21:25 PM · #13

hang in there...it's normal to feel depressed and stuff, don't let that make you feel like you're different or anything.

good luck with your phobia.

oOWonderBreadOo

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Canon EF 16-35mm f/2.8L USM

02/24/2006 12:07:44 AM · #14

wow- I remember you saying you called your husband when your daughter was sick and it was just something that stuck in my head! I know how that could make you feel so out of control, not being able to help with your own children. I do hope everything works out for you! :0)
& of course let us know everything that happens! ;0)

tolovemoon

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Canon EF-S 55-250mm f/4-5.6 IS

02/24/2006 01:39:35 AM · #15

Congratulations on the hollywood part, for you will defanetly get help if you are to appear on Dr. Phils. Best of luck to you.. I will keep you in my prayers in hopes that you will find the peace that you need to heal from this.

yanko

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Carl Zeiss 50mm ZE f/1.4 Planar T for Canon

02/24/2006 01:52:43 AM · #16

That's tough. I hope you find the answer. My wife doesn't have that problem but she can't stand seeing or hearing someone vomit. It's amazing how many tv shows and movies show vomiting or someone coughing up a lung. That's something I would have never noticed before. Oh and yes we've seen the Team America World Police movie...

Message edited by author 2006-02-24 01:53:32.

Bear_Music

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02/24/2006 02:22:59 AM · #17

I hope they take you on the show; I've seen him do a lot of good. Are those dates the dates you'd be taping, or just for evaluation as a prospect? And good luck to you, it sounds like a horrible experience you're going through.

Robt.

Art Roflmao

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Canon EF 24-105mm f/4.0L IS

02/24/2006 02:38:39 AM · #18

Congrats on the trip - hope you make it on the show and I hope you get the help - sounds like a terible thing to suffer through. My prayers are with you & the family.

In the meantime, you can go and rehearse your dialog with Dr. Phil...

;-)

Man_Called_Horse

Canon EOS-300D Rebel

02/24/2006 03:24:28 AM · #19

That's great.

My best friends fiance is a producer for Dr. Phil. I am going to call her. Get more of a scoop on the poop.

NathanWert

Canon EOS-90D

Sigma 18-250mm f/3.5-6.3 DC OS HSM

02/24/2006 04:58:15 AM · #20

Congrats, and good luck.

02/24/2006 08:51:37 AM · #21

Originally posted by Art Roflmao:

Thanks, I needed that! LMAO!
And That would be awesome Horse.... I was dealing with a woman named Lisa over there.