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06/13/2009 11:15:41 AM · #201 |
Hey  jettyimages!
Thats OK... you felt off the wagon but it seems you jumped in right after!!! So you didnt miss the jorney!!
Keep on going!! And keep in mind that dont matter how many times you fall if you can jump in right after and keep with us!!!
Congrats for being honest with you and with us!!
Congrats for dont giving up!!
Congrats for your 9 days until your firts fall!! You must walk before you run... and I think you are doing good!!
Cheers!! |
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06/13/2009 01:29:37 PM · #202 |
Hi All, my name is Ameed .. today is my 32nd day without a smoke :)
Yesterday we were at friends, having fun, drinks and wine going like crazy, the atmosphere was so relaxing, you know when it is the perfect atmosphere for drinks and cigarettes, all the smokers went outside to the terrace to smoke wile enjoying their drinks .. unfortunately they are all my best friends .. went outside with them and I was tempted .. went to the washroom, put my head under the cold water, drank cold water till I can't breath no more .. and went out again .. the craving is gone .. and it is another day without a smoke .. today is my 32st day smoke free and I am happy ..
Btw, while setting with my friends .. I thought I am the oen envying them for being able to smoke. But they told me they envy me for my well power to be able to set with them, drink .. enjoy my self .. and not having a single cigarette ..
Trust me .. lots of people envy you because you have the power to do the right thing .. and they don't .. don't' submit to any temptation .. and carry on ..
You can do it ..
Wishing you all a wonderful weekend .. Don't drink and drive .. don't even think about having a smoke :)
BAMartin 2 Months .. you are a real champion :)
 jotaga Weight can always wait till after vacation .. let me know if you have one empty spot .. I can really use one :)
cynthiann You are most welcome .. glad you are having fun :) keep up the good work :)
jettyimages I sent you a PM :)
I am going to get ready for tonight .. wishing you all a wonderful weekend once again .. and don't think for a second that you can't do it .. take a look at all the wonderful people in here from all around the world .. they are all doing it .. live healthy .. live longer .. live better :)
Owee Oweee .. you can do it :)
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06/13/2009 02:53:40 PM · #203 |
AmeedEl-Ghoul you have made it over the one month line, even with an evening of temptation. I am so proud of you! Feels great doesn't it?
jettyimages I sent you a PM as well. Hang in there.
Message edited by author 2009-06-13 14:59:50. |
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06/14/2009 10:38:58 AM · #204 |
Ok guys. I'm back, as of right now. The past few days I went to hell and back, it was a really tough time, and this afternoon I thought I was going to completely lose it emotionally. Its tough being a single mum, we weren't put on this earth to be alone, and with my temperament (artistic, or whatever you'd like to call it) I feel very alone in this town. Its full of people who simply don't see things the same way that I do. Its true, I started smoking again, just one at first, then 2, then of course by yesterday it was full time again. But I didn't stop the walking. Today I took a long walk at the end of the day. The sky was absolutely incredible - huge stretches of beautiful clouds reaching towards the sun as it drifted down over the hills. The beach that I go to is a dog beach, and as the dogs played I was so taken by the sky, the reflections of the water, the perfect diamond of seagulls waiting for the glory of the moment as if it were a performance all made me want to cry. I mentioned to other dog owners how incredible the scenery was, and all they could say was "oh, I just want to see blue sky", then started talking about a patch of plain blue that the sun had left behind, and how it looked through their $2 sunglasses. They just didn't get it, and it sent me into a real depression, I felt so alone.
The reason I'm telling you all of this is because I have been smoking for two days, and it didn't heal a thing. It didn't make me happier, calmer, less depressed. It simply made me smell, made my lungs and throat feel bad, made me feel ashamed. I came home in tears, feeling really lost and really dark. But then I realised that there's nothing wrong with me, we are humans and its ok to want to be with someone who feels the things you do. So I'm not going to beat myself up for being miserable because I'm single. And in thinking that, I don't feel so miserable any more, lol.
I have written myself an email tonight, promising myself a few things re quitting, and reminding myself of how the smoking didn't help, in fact I felt lower and darker than I've ever felt over the past two days. I felt more alive and zinging in those first 3 days of giving up than I've ever felt.
I do need your support, I ran away from you all, but your PM's (thank you :-) helped me to realise that I'm not alone in this struggle. And what I did was not a crime, it was a momentary lapse and probably a very good lesson to me that smoking does not fix anything in my life. The cravings will just have to be dealt with, I look forward to getting that 2/3 day buzz again (ha ha, I get it twice, aren't you jealous, lol) and will not fall off the wagon again.
I apologise if this is all too heavy or candid, but I really feel the need to document this so I hold true to myself this time. |
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06/14/2009 11:14:12 AM · #205 |
| Welcome back to the train!!!!!! |
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06/14/2009 11:18:04 AM · #206 |
Yay Trish! Good for you for realizing that the smoking did not fix other problems. Do you live in a small town where its hard to meet other singles? Is there a photography club you can join? I have been a single Mom and its very hard. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help. Even if you just need someone to listen, I am here for you.
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06/14/2009 12:43:15 PM · #207 |
Hey Trish, I can sorta relate except for the mom part, which is a BIG part. I've been alone my whole life. It can suck, yes, but it has its benefits, too.
You can drink milk out of the carton - no one cares!
You can buy what you want without explaining it to anyone.
You don't have to brush your hair in the morning or change out of PJs if you don't want to. And you can wear whatever you want for pajamas. Or nothing at all.
I could go on...
But I also see what you mean about sharing the moment. I, too, see stuff like that and wish I could "show" it to someone. But in the end, it's still magical and marvelous, even if it is just you!
Glad to see you back here. I'll be joining you guys soon (I hope). I've been keeping track of my smoking habit, and will go see the doc again tomorrow. Which reminds me - I need to do my homework...
You done good. :-) |
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06/14/2009 01:22:49 PM · #208 |
jettyimages life is not fair, and shit happens .. we all know that .. this is the way it has been and will always be. Lots of things in life we don't control, no one chose to be sick, no one prefer to be unhappy, but this is life. But there are things that we have the power to choosing paths and deciding .. quitting smoking is one of them ..
as you said, it only made magnified the negative feelings .. and I totally understand, I've been there.
In away or another we all have problems worry about, I am on these normal people who has his load of problems. I had problems before quitting smoking, and still have them till now. The thing changed is the way I am looking at it .. while smoking I used to think about it as the end of the world is about to happen, all gloomy and dark. Now .. I just look at it and smile, felling much better, and having faith these problems will end one day, and when it will end. I will be healthy to enjoy life to the max .. as I said .. you didn't fail, they are barely road bumps .. hang in there ..
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06/14/2009 01:23:34 PM · #209 |
Champions .. Kindly post your status update or PM me. I need to get the chart update Monday ..
Thanks in advance and keep up the good work ..
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06/14/2009 01:26:37 PM · #210 |
Two months, one week, five days, 23 hours, 35 minutes and 59 seconds.
1479 cigarettes not smoked, saving $443.90.
Life saved: 5 days, 3 hours, 15 minutes.
I know you are not tracking money saved or life saved, but I like these stats and they are here more for me than for the chart. |
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06/14/2009 08:30:06 PM · #211 |
Thanks everyone for being so supportive.
Melethia, we have a date to go and see the beach together sometime :-) And yes, there are benefits - the relationship I was in until the beginning of February made me want to be single so much, he was manipulative, controlling, possessive and jealous to the extreme. Life is better than that, and I guess I've worked out that even though I wanted out of that relationship, I'm still a woman with needs and desires. But today its better, I feel more in control now that I've stopped again - and not one craving yet!
BAMartin, yep, its a relatively small town (65,000 people) but also a beach town - so most people here are here for the beach, the surf, the relaxed lifestyle. There are incredibly few artistic people here, work is hard to get for anyone with a brain, so its essentially a tradesman's town, with a heavy bent towards tourism as its also very beautiful. I truly am an alien, I do have good friends here though, even if they're not tall, dark, handsome, single, artistic, music lover, and intelligent, lol. I probably need to go to the pub less on my weekends off (we do single mothers nights all the time - more depressing than helpful I think!), and concentrate on how to take a DPC style photo ;-)
AmeedEl-Ghoul thank you, you're absolutely right, we do all have problems and I'm certainly not wanting to focus on myself here - just to admit that I screwed up the challenge but have realised that the smoking doesn't help whatsoever. Knowing that was the most valuable information I could get, for now I really don't feel any temptation to go back there. Not one craving today is quite strange really, I thought I would have become just as hooked as ever by smoking for 2 days, but it seems the good work I did for the 9 or 10 days has put me ahead of the game.
Congratulations to everyone else who has battled on and are seeing victory without needing to look back. I am envious of you, and proud to still be a part of this amazing group!
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06/15/2009 04:12:04 AM · #212 |
Oh boy. Today was not fun. My little girl (Kate, 9) spilt a cup of boiling hot soup all over her leg and bottom, causing 2nd degree burns to 7% of her body. We had to go to hospital in an ambulance, and were there for several hours. Very stressful and a nasty shock and experience for both of us.
But guess what? I did not, and will not, smoke. I will, however, drink wine tonight. |
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06/15/2009 04:23:51 AM · #213 |
| Oh dear! Poor thing! She'll be sore for awhile (and a whole lot more careful with hot liquids!) but she'll heal fast. And be VERY proud of yourself! |
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06/16/2009 05:00:33 AM · #214 |
Day 2 of phase two (12/16 days smoke free), my daughter had to go back to emergency for another 5 hours, this time as the burn became infected and she was quite sick. Needless to say, stressful and worrying. Only one craving period today, at the usual early evening time, but I'm fine now, and didn't succumb.
By jove, I think I may be beating this thing!
So where's everyone else got to? Are you all out on long distance running trips, or have you come so far that you don't even remember that you used to smoke? ;-) |
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06/16/2009 08:52:58 AM · #215 |
Hello and good morning to all. I hope you are all fine. It's nice to read the progress of everyone :)
jettyimages I would like to extend a great big CONGRATULATIONS to you. We all falter in our everyday lives for one reason or another and it takes a strong person to admit that. You should feel like a hero right now for getting back up and putting your head down and charging forward. You have your family to care for and yourself too, never give up on that because your worth it :)
I wish you and everyone else the very best. I know that those of you who are trying to keep from smoking have the hardest job but I'm confident that with the support of this thread and everyone in it we will all succeed at our quest to loose weight or quite smoking or the hardest one of all both loosing weight and quite smoking because WE ROCK THE HOUSE.
All the best to everyone.
MAX!
Oh and I've lost another 3lbs :) |
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06/16/2009 08:57:03 AM · #216 |
So sorry for your kid. I Hope she recovers well and fast.
Congratulations on not smoking on this tuff situation!! You are certainly becoming stronger on your purposes!
I think that the cigarretes are not a problem anymore for me. I stopped counting the days and also using the patches... Now im smoke and nitotine free... Time to deal with the weight.
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06/16/2009 08:57:19 AM · #217 |
Good job, Trish! I'm glad you hopped right back aboard, especially with all that's going on. Must not have been easy.
I know it sounds silly, but try spending a buck or two on bubbles. I know I haven't found some miracle cure but the hand to mouth motions and the deep breathing really kept me from smoking many times and still occasionally does. Kids and dogs love it too and that puts a smile on your face. Just a thought... But if you do decide to try it, don't try to take panning shots of the bubbles. It'll be enough frustration to make you want to smoke again. LOL
Saturday was horrible for me. Smed was leaving town again for several months on Sunday and his brother and wife decide to come over the night before and bitch about taxes and government for hours. Not only that, but they are the kind of people that you have to listen to intently and agree with whether you want to or not or they take it very personally. My heart was beating out of my chest. I just wanted to be alone with my hubby before he left. I am very lonely with him gone, especially now that my daughter has moved out, and this next job is going to last him 3-5 years. Good and bad.
Smober for 16 days. |
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06/16/2009 01:57:03 PM · #218 |
Chart Updated
Wow .. lots of input, will add mine shortly .. Just wanted to attract your attention all that the chart has been updated.
You will notice lots of colors, you have a chart key, please let me know if there are some discrepancies.
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06/16/2009 04:28:39 PM · #219 |
Unbelievably busy week at work, not even space to breath ..
I feel better and better and better each passing day, yes I get a craving every now and then, but it is like a sticky fly or an annoying mosquito that passes over your head for few seconds, annoy you with the bzzzzz sound .. you simply wave it away with your hand and it is gone. I like the way I say NO when someone asks me don`t you miss smoking .. do you want a smoke .. wanna go for a smoke ... the auto answer and the defense mechanism respond immediately NO .. no chance to think or reconsideration .. NO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :) stay above the influence and just say NO :)
I started walking daily for 30 min to an hour, it feels amazing .. I feel back pain, so I tend to slow it down a bet, enjoy the weather .. and have smoke free fun. I think I`ll wait till June for the gym, I don`t want to have back relapse.
jettyimages I am really sorry for Kate, bad things happens .. but when they happen to our kidds it imuch harder on us. I am sure she will be doing fine, she is very young and her cells generates in much faster rates .. beside .. she has an awesome mother to be beside her ;) Another experience to be added to her small bag.
Another thing, you are not in phase 2, you are still in phase 1 with few bumps in the way .. think about it this way .. it is much easier .. and you did start with us, and doing just great .. keep up the good work.
Quigley MAX, sure thing we rock the house, but man you are doing awesome losing weight :) You are leading the weight loss part .. this is why you are the only one in green in the weight loss section .. it is going to be hard to catch up .. but as I said .. I am giving you a head start :) Do you mind sharing with us what do you do exactly to lose weight?
jotaga Jose .. congratulation .. I am sure life is much better now, I started lose the time tracking as well, unless for the time counting program I wouldn`t remember :) It feels really good .. time to start paying attention to the weight :)
cynthiann I remember who scared you were at the beginning, you were really in doubt, you almost had the feeling no way you would be able to do it, and now look at you :) two weeks smoke free :) things will go easier from here .. I would use the free time you have to go to the gym .. in case you forgot Mrs .. you are still in for the weight loss challenge :P I have everything documented and I am not going to erase it .. time to start working on those extra pounds ;) Smed will have a wonderful new year present next year :)
Ladies and Gents .. welcome to week2 and a new level of smoke free life :)
we are still missing updates from VitaminB Mal37 and cryan
Cheers all and keep up
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06/17/2009 06:58:00 AM · #220 |
WOW. I just discovered TASTE!!!! My little girl and I had a rough day again, discovered the hospital had completely screwed up her dressings, and had to start at a very painful beginning at a wound clinic. So it was time for a really nourishing comfort meal (its winter here...). So I decided to look up a good red lentil Dahl recipe on the net. It sounded promising - fresh coriander, ginger, garlic, onion, some cumin, garam masala, turmeric, chilli flakes, salt, fresh lemon juice, bay leaves and cinnamon sticks. Served it on a lovely mixed lettuce mix with chopped cucumber and hot rolls. Not only did it taste absolutely unbelievable, but the smells seemed so much more pungent and poetic while I was cooking - AND when I went into the kitchen to clean up after dinner.
I guess my time has come, day 17, and my taste buds are now alive again :-)
I think I might actually enjoy cooking again, it was such an incredible treat, I feel almost stupid saying it, but I haven't actually really enjoyed any food at all for a very long time!
If anyone wants the recipe, let me know! YUM. |
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06/17/2009 07:03:07 AM · #221 |
Originally posted by cynthiann:
Good job, Trish! I'm glad you hopped right back aboard, especially with all that's going on. Must not have been easy.
I know it sounds silly, but try spending a buck or two on bubbles. I know I haven't found some miracle cure but the hand to mouth motions and the deep breathing really kept me from smoking many times and still occasionally does. Kids and dogs love it too and that puts a smile on your face. Just a thought... But if you do decide to try it, don't try to take panning shots of the bubbles. It'll be enough frustration to make you want to smoke again. LOL
Saturday was horrible for me. Smed was leaving town again for several months on Sunday and his brother and wife decide to come over the night before and bitch about taxes and government for hours. Not only that, but they are the kind of people that you have to listen to intently and agree with whether you want to or not or they take it very personally. My heart was beating out of my chest. I just wanted to be alone with my hubby before he left. I am very lonely with him gone, especially now that my daughter has moved out, and this next job is going to last him 3-5 years. Good and bad.
Smober for 16 days. |
Hey Cindy
I'm so sorry you have to go through so many months without your hubby - that must be really hard. Especially after rediscovering yourself with him as a non smoker (in and out of bed, lol). You probably want to continue that new lease of life with him, so my heart goes out to you. That situation with your relatives sounded absolutely revolting - next time you must make sure you tell Smed that just ain't happening!!! I hope you survive it - its going to be lonely (oh boy is it ever!) but maybe this is a great time to take on an exercise program, spend a little of your smoking money on some new clothes (its great not having to justify new clothes to a partner, so while he's away, go for it, lol), and by the time he comes back, he'll want to put you behind lock and key in case any other guys notice you :-)
If you need to talk, I'm here, and I'm sure everyone else is too.
Boy I wish we could all meet up somewhere in 6 months, I'm really curious to see who these new friends we've made are, and to celebrate our victories! |
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06/17/2009 10:53:09 AM · #222 |
Funny how both of you mention that I should get off my ass. :) It needs to be now for sure.
Last night was my hardest night yet without a doubt.
In the beginning, I was looking forward to Smed coming home and seeing me as a non-smoker. It was very motivating and it all paid off. Now that he's gone and I won't see him until mid-July and who knows when after that, then my motivation is gone. I could've easily smoked last night had I had one. Smed is my rock and he is gone. I'm all by myself.
I miss him so much.
All I have now is my two daughters, one lives across town and the other is 16 and enjoying her summer. So that's it... just me and the dogs and the bubbles, which are starting to lose their magic. I am sitting here in front of 30 college students proctoring a test for one of the instructors and all I want to do is cry. Woe is me. :P
So, yeah, I do need to get off my ass, just like I did in the beginning, except in a bigger way. Or else I'm going to fail. |
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06/19/2009 02:43:35 PM · #223 |
| Sending roses to everyone :) |
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06/19/2009 03:28:46 PM · #224 |
How sweet!
Well, with a BIG thanks to Trish, I'm still smober. Extra hard with Smed gone for several reasons. One of them being that damn little voice in my head reminding me that I could get away with just smoking one and nobody would EVER know. Except Trish, that is, she has some kind of psychic thing going on when it comes to my temptations. LOL |
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06/19/2009 05:29:11 PM · #225 |
Today I completed 5 weeks :) yeppie ..
Got my self two huge scent candles at my home office .. I can enjoy the smell all day long, it really puts me in a good mood :) Now getting ready for another weekend,
Wishing you all a wonderful one :)
Btw Trish, how is Kate doing? |
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